Have not I commanded you? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be you dismayed: for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go. – Joshua 1:9
My first experience with snorkeling was an unforgettable one. The first site where we snorkeled wasn’t very deep, but the shock of the freezing water and the fear of drowning (and sharks!) was enough to keep me from actually putting my face in the water for about half an hour. After finally gathering up the courage to lie flat, I opened my eyes underwater and was amazed at the wonder and beauty that unfolded just beneath the dark choppy surface of the water. Overwhelmed by the sheer enormity of the ocean, I began humming songs of worship while I explored the small area beneath me with its magnificent creatures and plant life, marveling at the handiwork of my God who holds it all in the palm of His hands.
Today I feel as if I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. There are circumstances all around me that are overwhelming and heartbreaking. My prayers seem to bounce off a brick wall and come right back at me. Mocking me they say, “How can you expect God to handle this one? …it’s just too big.”
I know these thoughts are being planted by Satan, but it’s easy to be lured into this mindset. And every time I get into this mind space, I know I’m limiting my experience with the same God who has left me speechless time and time again by showing me how big He is.
It is so easy to be familiar with the awe inspiring truths about our magnificent God but to be unaffected by those truths in daily life. We know the scriptures; we sing the songs; we pray. But we can so easily live our lives without a conscious knowledge that this same amazing God is really the God whom we serve. We can go through our days unaware that He is guiding us, loving us, caring for us, actively sustaining us, protecting us, and working all things for our good each and every moment of every day.
The perception of children naturally lends itself to diminishing astonishment. Most things that seemed big to us when we were younger look smaller and smaller as we grow up.
I drive by my elementary school every morning on the way into work. When I see those kids, they look so small. It seems impossible that I was one of them once. My perspective is relative to me, and skewed because of it.
The opposite is true when I look at God. My understanding of Him was so limited that He seemed smaller early in my faith. These days, as I’m getting to know my Lord in a deeply intimate way, I am able to see how small I am in the presence of an infinitely big God.
What about you? Did He seem bigger once upon a time to you? To me, C.S Lewis captures the essence of the “bigness” of God perfectly in this conversation between Lucy and Aslan:
“Aslan,” said Lucy, “You’re bigger.”
“That is because you are older, little one,” he answered.
“Not because you are?”
“I am not. But every year you grow you will find me bigger”
May it be so for us as well.