Night Blind

I don’t exactly know what night blindness is, but I think I might have it..at least a mild version of it. When I’m driving at night, my depth perception is off. I don’t see curbs well, and if I’m in an area that I’m not familiar with, I’m usually feeling a little flustered.

The other night, our family was headed home from an area totally unfamiliar to me. As we were getting in our cars, I decided to follow my dad home. As I was driving past strange streets and steering the car from one highway to the next, I didn’t do much more than focus on my dad’s car ahead of me.

You see, my dad is the safest driver I know. He doesn’t speed or make sudden lane changes; he’s aware of the cars around him and always practices defensive driving. I knew that if I followed him, I would have nothing to worry about. I had total confidence that I was going to get home safely.

All of us encounter situations in life that are unfamiliar to us, and many of us try to navigate these situations by ourselves even though we have a form of spiritual night blindness.

There are going to be days when everything looks confusing, and we get upset and frustrated because life isn’t going the way we planned. There are going to be things that happen on the winding road of life that are completely un-navigateable, and we will try to steer ourselves to safety.

But the easiest thing to forget is that we have a God who is always willing to guide us. He is the perfect version of my imperfect, human father that I completely trust to get me home safely.

Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. (Psalm 25: 5)

The Bible is full of truths that seem unbelievable when we’re going through the fiery trials of this life. It’s hard to believe that God loves you when He allows a family member to suffer through cancer, or allows you to be without a job for months on end. It seems trite at those moments when someone tells you that God still loves you and wants the best for you. The words fall flat.

I can remember a time in my life that I was very depressed. I honestly felt as if God had abandoned me, and everywhere I looked, all I could see were happy people living out their happily ever afters. I grew up in church, and I had learned that God loved me from a very early age. But just learning about God’s love wasn’t enough for me. In fact, when I was going through my depression, I became increasingly doubtful about God’s “love” for me.

When people tried to encourage me, I felt like asking ‘If God really loves me so much, shouldn’t I start FEELING loved at some point?’

By the grace of God, I did come out of that miserable time of my life, and slowly God started changing my heart. I learned that sometimes meeting with God is like a confrontation. When you come face to face with a holy and fearful God, you realize that God’s love is not neat and tidy. His love doesn’t look like the imperfect, human love that we see all around us. It is more all-encompassing, more overwhelming…just so much better than anything we have ever experienced before.

He was there in the beginning, and everything that is happening in your life is happening for a reason. He loves you, and that means that he may lead you to uncomfortable places where you will be forced to trust Him completely. But trust Him, and you will be stunned at the closeness of God’s presence and well as the peace and love you feel when you really let go and rest in Him.

When you are going through the darkest times in your life, fix your hope on God and keep reminding yourself of the truths in the Word of God. He will guide you and lead you. He can see through the darkness clearly, there is no confusion clouding His judgment when He leads you home.

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