Stuck in the Mud

He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. | Psalm 40:2

I am a sinner. Pride has gripped my heart and my thoughts. My tongue has uttered words sharper than a blade. Even as a small child, I stole caramel squares from the grocery store. My mind is so sick and twisted sometimes. I have personally offended a holy God. Clearly, I am one messed-up, broken human being in need of a Savior.

God did provide the perfect Savior to deliver me. I did NOTHING to earn it. He loved me in spite of my faults, even when I continue to sin. There is this huge fallacy that I constantly fall for: the belief that God loves me the most when I am good. When I actually did my quiet time with God that whole week, didn’t have murderous thoughts of strangers while I was behind the steering wheel, or attended every Bible study… I like to tell myself that God must be really happy and proud of me. Biggest lie ever!

God loves me. That includes the times when I am at my worst. Here’s the other thing to consider. My “best” is still nothing compared to God’s best. His love for us is as high as the heavens are above the earth. He loves us with an infinite love regardless of the state of our hearts!

When you have a chance, you should read the entirety of Psalm 40. Seriously. Even after you become a believer, you are going to sin. You are going to fall. Sometimes it will be really steep, and it will leave gashes and scars. However, God is such a merciful and loving God. He meets you where you are, He will always come to rescue His lost sheep. He is the Shepherd who is willing to leave the 99 in search of the one lost one. Jesus is more than willing to pursue you to the ends of the earth and hell itself. Nothing can separate you from His love.

As for You, O Lord, You will not restrain Your mercy from me; Your steadfast love and Your faithfulness will ever preserve me! For evils have encompassed me beyond number; my iniquities have overtaken me, and I cannot see; they are more than the hairs of my head; my heart fails me. Be pleased, O Lord, to deliver me! O Lord, make haste to help me! | Psalm 40:11-13

Cry out to the Lord! Yes, when I’m in sin, I feel so guilty and so unworthy to even speak His name, but He has bought me with the precious blood of Christ that cleansed me from all of my sin – past, present, and future. God loves you even with all of your blemishes and ugliness. Claim His promises for yourself and do not let sin run your life. You have been made new, and you are clothed in His righteousness!

4 thoughts on “Stuck in the Mud

  1. “There is this huge fallacy that I constantly fall for: the belief that God loves me the most when I am good.”

    SAME HERE, sister! You’re not alone in this. As I’ve grown to know Him more, I find more & more things that are wrong/ugly/sinful/disgusting in me. Which is definitely the opposite of what I thought would happen when I started this whole journey with Christ. And so seeing all that innate ugliness in myself sometimes distracts me from the fact that the Cross was enough, that the Cross was a work of completion.

    It’s crazy how quickly we can fall into a “works-based” mentality even though we KNOW salvation is by grace through FAITH (Ephesians 2:8). In these moments we have to remember to take every thought captive to Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5). Easier said than done, yes. But definitely possible with Him. And praise God for that!

    Thanks for sharing your heart with us, Sheba! Praying we press into Him in these moments we are reminded of exactly how short we fall. Love you!

    1. I am so glad that I’m not the only one in this boat, haha! Praise God for the finished work of the cross! Thanks for your sweet words! Love you too!

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