Everything was fine in my head that morning; my thoughts were safe and my world was calm. It was the start of a new day, a very predictable morning. I had a few conversations with the Lord and got up to start the day. The next thing I knew I was waking up dazed. In that moment, I had only two thoughts in my mind that I can remember. So much blood and my teeth…something is wrong with my teeth.
Not panic, confusion mainly. Just two minutes before, I was full of thoughts that did not have to be tested until well, they had to be tested. The paramedics came. They asked me questions. “Does your head hurt?” I took a moment or two to respond because a lot of things hurt at that point. I needed to focus so I could respond accurately. But they kept asking until I said, “No…my head doesn’t hurt.”
They lifted my chin. “Oh yeah, she’s going to need stitches.” First time for everything, right?
They belted me into some fancy chair and carried me downstairs. I closed my eyes. They won’t drop me, I’m sure they won’t drop me.
We got outside. It was quite cold, but refreshing. They moved me from the chair to the stretcher and rolled me to the ambulance. Is this really happening? Yes, it is totally happening.
In the ambulance, as we made our way to the ER, I closed my eyes. They continued to ask, “Priyanka, is your head hurting? Are you okay?” I kept my eyes closed, not because I was losing consciousness, but because I knew that was where I could be with the Lord.
I was safe there with Him. Just me and Him. Yes, Father, with open arms, yes. And in that moment, on an early, fall morning, I accepted the task for the day. Lord, may this be for Your glory. My thoughts quickly turned from the temporary kind to the eternal. I was at peace. The peace went on. And remained.
Most days, I am full of thoughts, filled to the brim with them. I am as a student, always eager to learn and know, to better myself, to sharpen what has been given. I often wonder what is the use of all the thoughts if they are never put to the test or given a platform to be showcased. So much knowledge and belief just waiting for a time to be expressed. Then suddenly, exactly that happens, an opportunity arises. The Teacher gives a test. Thoughts are called to action. Beliefs are tested. Faith is proven.
Our Teacher is surely not a typical teacher. He does not give us a syllabus with all our test dates listed and major assignments that must be completed in order to go on. He is the unpredictably exciting kind of teacher, who keeps us on the edge of our seats. He is passionate about His students and cares about our growth. He gives the tests when He thinks it is the right time. He gives the tests in the perfectly unexpected time.
When the tests come unexpectedly, it is nothing short of a blessing from above. What is true will remain and all else will have to go. Christ only expects us to trust Him today, and His peace just waits to be accepted. When He gives a test, it is always an opportunity to prove His love and grace by our faith. May we be found faithful.
In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ… | 1 Peter 1:6-7