Why Don’t I Love God More?

Guest Author: Stephanie Lambert

Have you ever thought much about how Jesus tells us to “abide in My love” (John 15:9)? I want to do that. I want to appreciate Who He is and all He has done so that “all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory.” What is the key? What am I missing?

Someone invited me to consider why God is worthy.

Why is God worthy?

Scripture says He is worthy to receive glory, honor, and power (Revelation 4:11). It says God is “worthy to be praised” (2 Samuel 22 and Psalm 18:3). I’d never spent that much time focused specifically on why He deserves all of this. I think that’s been part of my problem. As I have intentionally begun to consider His worthiness, He is changing me. Resting in His love is a natural fruit of knowing and understanding Him better.

Both the list of all God is worthy of and the list of reasons why He is worthy are endless. But as I ponder who He is to me personally, I find myself wanting more and more to give all my love and all my life to Him.

So Who is my God and why is He worthy of me?

He is my Listener.

He inclines, stretches, bends down His ear to hear…me. I don’t have to beg for his attention or to try to confide while He’s not paying attention. He’s already leaning in to hear (Psalm 116:2). The mighty Creator of the universe who has billions of things to do and burdens to bear wants me to “call upon” Him.

But my needs are insignificant in the scheme of all the universe…or even my country, town, or church.

They aren’t insignificant, though,
because He cares for me and I care about them.

The way a parent cares greatly for a toddler’s special blanket or doll…not because that thing has great value to the rest of the world, but because his baby cherishes it. God says to “pour out your heart” before Him, to “cast your cares upon Him” (Psalm 62:81 Peter 5:7).

I long to be heard, for the silent cry of my heart to be understood. That’s because I long for Him and He is the only One who satisfies.

He is my Deliverer.

My God has the power to do something about what He hears. David says that he sought the Lord, and He heard and delivered him from all his fears, saved him from his troubles and that He delivers the righteous from affliction (Psalm 34).

I fear being rejected, failing, the future, suffering (especially of those I love). I am troubled by difficult relationships, the struggles and aches of my friends, and challenges in work and life. I am afflicted with my own weaknesses and sinful nature. But all of this should just be fodder for my conversations with my God! I can unload. He’s waiting. He wants me to pray, He wants to hear, and He wants to deliver me. He rocked the earth, caused the heavens to tremble, thundered and sent lightning when David called on Him. He dramatically delivered.

In my distress, I called upon the Lord and cried out to my God…He sent from above, He took me, He drew me out of many waters. He delivered me from my strong enemy, from those who hate me; for they were too strong for me…He delivered me because He delighted in me. | 2 Samuel 22:7, 17-18, 20

He is my Soulmate.

Sometimes I’m very aware of how complicated I am and of how unaware the world around me seems to be. I feel sad or happy. I don’t know why—or maybe I do. It’s everything. But also nothing. Suffice it to say: I don’t always even know what I need. My precious Savior is not afraid to brave that complexity. In fact, He dives in.

He searches me and knows me.

He pays attention to when I stop and when I go. He knows what I’m trying to say before I even say it. He knows what my future holds and what I need (Psalm 139). His thoughts toward me are so numerous they cannot be numbered (Psalm 40:5). His thoughts about me are numberless!

He knows me because He made me. I am His creation. His child. Breathing only the life He breathed into me. As a painter steps back and admires His masterpiece or an architect takes in his design brought to life, my Creator enjoys me. I’m fearfully and wonderfully made for His pleasure. And because of Him, I’m complex and valuable.

He is my Strength and Confidence.

Sickness, miscommunication, loss, pain, loneliness—whatever the suffering, I’m certain of one thing:

I am not enough.
I cannot heal, love,
recover, or endure myself.

But God promises:

My grace is sufficient. My strength is made perfect in weakness. | 2 Corinthians 12:9

That same supernatural power that raised Christ from the dead lives mightily in me. After crying out for help and seeing God deliver, David proclaims, “By You I can run against a troop, and by my God I can leap over a wall” (2 Samuel 22:30).

My God wants me to let go of my strength (striving) so I can operate in His. In a life-threatening situation, the children of Israel prayed:

…we have no power to face this vast army that is attacking us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you. | 2 Chronicles 20:12

To this God replied that this was not their battle but His. He commanded them to get in position to see Him deliver.

He is my Savior.

The sweetness of my relationship with Him is only possible because He loved me unconditionally while I was still loving my sin. He called me to repent, turn away from my darkness. He drew me by His grace and welcomed me into His loving arms when I believed so that I could begin a lifetime of enjoying Him.

I want to go on and on and on pondering and realizing just who my God is and all He means to me. I am confident that there is no one else as wonderful as He. I want to experience and appreciate more “just how beautiful You are and how great Your affections are for me.”

Lord, please clear the stage of my life when it becomes too cluttered to see the only One Who deserves the glory.

“O magnify the Lord with me and let us exalt His name together.” | Psalm 34:3

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