As you all are most likely aware, Mother’s Day is right around the corner. It’s that time of the year where we like to show our appreciation to our moms for all of the things that they do above and beyond on our behalf. This year is a bit different for many reasons.
One main reason why this year is so different for me personally is that I am about to be a mother. Depending on who you ask, some might say that I am already a mother, which is so weird for me to comprehend! It took months for it sink in that I was even pregnant, but I will never forget how I felt when I saw my baby on the sonogram at 12 weeks. She was just moving around and waving her hands at us on the screen! My husband and I actually waved back even though there was no way she could see us, but that was probably the moment that it finally clicked that I was going to be a mom.
My heart melted for this tiny stranger.
After the fall of mankind, the book of Genesis mentions that the pain of childbirth was a product of sin. What I never really understood was what Paul was referring to in the New Testament:
For Adam was formed first, then Eve; and Adam was not deceived, but the woman was deceived and became a transgressor. Yet she will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith and love and holiness, with self-control. | 1 Timothy 2:13-15
I might still not understand what Paul meant by the woman being saved through childbirth, but I wonder if God designed pregnancy as a foreshadowing of the Christian walk. Personally, this new journey of becoming a mother has opened my eyes to a new perspective of what being a vessel and child of God means. Other than taking my vitamins and eating and drinking more, I have had no active participation in the development of this baby.
God is the one who is actively growing and stitching all the pieces together.
This body of mine is merely the vessel.
In like manner, when we become saved, the Bible states that we are a new creation. The old has passed, and we are new. There is nothing that WE are actually doing to make that change. It is the Holy Spirit who literally changes us from the inside out, molding us to become more and more like Jesus! During this process, the world notices the changes. There is an outward manifestation, or rather fruit of the Spirit, that is produced. I didn’t truly grasp the depth of the spiritual transformation until I saw the physical manifestation of life growing and changing within me. For the first few months, I did not really look or even feel pregnant, but as the baby grew,
not only did my outward appearance change,
but also my behavior and habits.
I am currently halfway through my pregnancy, and I know that eventually the maturation process will be completed, and it will be time for the baby to be born and begin a new life separate from my body. I am so torn because part of me wants her to stay inside me forever and the other part cannot wait to meet her in person!
Alternatively, I know that once the Holy Spirit has completed His work in me, I will finally be in the presence of Jesus in my eternal form. I have no idea what that will be like, but I look forward to both experiences with trembling and excitement.