Nothing could have ever prepared me for motherhood. I felt like I was literally thrown into the deep end of an emotional pool. Initially, it was all overwhelming to say the least—and it still is, depending on the day.
By watching life through my little girl’s eyes
as she learns new things day to day,
I am gaining more insight about my heavenly Father.
No one else has or ever will love us
as much as our Lord.
He loved us so much that He sent His only begotten Son as the ultimate sacrifice. Despite that knowledge, we constantly have doubts about His goodness and love toward us—especially when we run into trials in life.
We ask ourselves:
Why did this bad thing have to happen?
Is God punishing me or my loved ones?
We are constantly told that all things work together for good, but how often do we wonder:
How can this event/problem possibly be for our good?
Last week, I took my daughter to the pediatrician for her four month checkup, and during this visit she got another set of shots. Last time at her two month visit, she was a total champ! Cried very briefly when she got her shots but stopped as soon as she got milk. She never fevered or acted out of the ordinary. It was great!
Well, for this go around, her pediatrician warned me that the second round of shots tends to be worse for babies, but I brushed it off when my girl handled the shots just as well as the previous time—she just briefly cried and went to sleep after some milk. She was her normal happy self all day long and through the night.
The next night, I put her to bed, but she woke up shortly thereafter, screaming and crying. My husband and I did everything we could think of to console her, but to no avail. Every time we got her calmed down and asleep, she would wake up just a few minutes later. We tried feeding her, changing her, and even checked her temperature for a fever. Finally, we realized that maybe she was having pain in her legs from the injections. I gave her Tylenol, and, after a nursing session, she was finally fast asleep. I felt so bad that we didn’t realize that our baby was in pain sooner!
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. | Jeremiah 29:11
Even though it was a painful experience for everyone, we would not have changed the decision for her to have the shots in the first place. As her parents, we knew that even though there might be some short-term pain, the vaccines have a long term benefit for her—they prevent even worse and deadly pain and harm.
Similarly, God allows us to endure suffering for our ultimate good, and He will be there to carry us through that suffering.