My Soul Reflection

For none of us lives to himself, and none of us dies to himself. For if we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord. So then, whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lord’s. For to this end Christ died and lived again, that He might be Lord both of the dead and of the living. | Romans 14:7-9

I am going to be open about myself in this post. I hope it encourages someone who reads this. One of my greatest fears is that I will lose myself. For 25 years, I have been Sheba. Right now, in this moment, “Sheba” is a compilation of countless experiences, encounters, memories, beliefs, emotions, talents, aspirations, and passions. I am terrified that years from now I will look in the mirror and not recognize that person.

I should probably clarify what I mean when I say “lose myself.” I am terrified that the components that are put together to make “Sheba” will be slowly chipped away by people, experiences, and even the race that I am running. I do not want to become a living shadow. The reason I bring this up is because I have seen this happen to real people in my life. Once vibrant, smiling individuals replaced by downcast shadows of themselves that are just going through the motions. This goes beyond being “burnt out.” Do you ever wonder about things like this? Maybe I’m the only one. Maybe I’m not.

While I was struggling with this, a question kept resonating in my mind: “What is your identity?” Yes, I am “Sheba,” but before I was even born, my Savior already knew me by name and He had predestined me to be His child. My identity is solely in HIM! When He redeemed me, He saved me from my sins by purchasing me with His blood!

I am no longer my own. My life is hid in Christ. After I believed and surrendered my life to Christ, I now have a place reserved for me in heaven. However, I cannot live my life just waiting. My every waking moment is for Jesus. He has called us to live an ABUNDANT LIFE on this earth.

What about the trials of life? How can you keep going when circumstances just keep pulling at you from every side? Just when one hurdle is conquered, another comes out of nowhere to trip you. Here is what you remind yourself:


You have eternal riches in store! I cannot wait to hear those sweet words from my Father, “Well done, good and faithful servant.” I don’t know when that will occur, but I do know that I’m closer today than yesterday. Even if a day comes when I don’t recognize myself in the mirror, I hope and pray that I will always see Jesus because He is my constant. Whether I live or die, it is all for Christ! Today, I choose to remember that my life is in the hands of a Savior who is all-loving, all-knowing, and all-powerful. I recommend that you remind yourself of the same.

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